Off my Game

I'm completely off my game. I have no routine. I usually thrive on routine. I love to make lists and even put little boxes next to each item, to be filled with a big check mark when it's completed. But I'm not doing it. No lists - no routine - no agenda. It seems my brain only wants to muddle around. I can't even say anything like, "Oh I spend my whole day crying" or "I'm too distraught to do anything at all." It's more grey than that. Time, like my emotions slip through my fingers undefined.

I'm not even taking the dog for a walk or taking my vitamins daily. It seems like such simple things. And yet. I like Flylady (you really should check out the website). I haven't adopted  her whole program but have picked up things along the way (that was a pun. hahaha). In more stable days, I did my Flylady Five, as I called it - every morning. That is, I put in a load of laundry, a load of dishes, made the bed, swish and swiped the bathroom, and did one more thing for good measure. During the day, if I got nothing else done, those five things got done. And that always felt good. But now, nothing gets done in an orderly or routine manner. It's all haphazard and I have a feeling, that's becoming a problem for me.

It's time to take charge.

Maybe. ~ME